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Winter-Spring

I cannot believe that a whole month has already passed! A twelfth of 2012 has been lived, has passed, is gone, and is never to return. Time flies… I don’t know that I was even ready for the new year to begin in the first place and now I am deep into it. I’m ok with this, though.

I recently sat at my favorite bench at a local lake here in OKC after a light run. (Light because I am so out of shape; don’t laugh haha.) It was a beautiful day. The sun was beaming, gently kissing the earth. Those golden rays glistened across the moving water.  There was a light breeze brushing my face that also was nudging the lake water to wash over some rocks. Small birds free flying against the deep blue. It was…peaceful. I began thinking about my life. Where I was at the beginning of this year and where I stood (well, sat, haha) at the closure of the first month. A small smile formed on my face that I couldn’t help and that no one could see. I was in a good place. A place I wouldn’t change or trade for anything. If you knew my current situation and life you’d probably ask “why in the world would you not change what’s happening?” to which I say, I’m at peace. Everything that has happened to me in this short month could be terrifying, hurtful, worrisome and a lot of other negative things. And I admit, at some points they were, but when sitting on that bench at the close of January, I was and am content. My life is in the hands of a mighty God that loves and cares for me and is in control of all things. That… is peaceful. I don’t understand what’s happening or what is to come but rather than worrying, I am enjoying this time in my life. I read out of this “Experiencing God” devotional of mine some wonderful words that I want to share that express how I feel.

“Just as God planned seasons in nature, He planned seasons in life as well. Life has its springtime, when we begin new things and look excitedly toward the future. Summer comes and we work diligently in the heat of the day at all that God has assigned to us. With autumn comes the fruition of things begun at an earlier time in our lives. Winter brings an end to a particular period in our lives. Sometimes winter brings hardship, but we remain hopeful, for another spring is just around the corner! In God’s perfect design for our lives, He has planned for times of fruitfulness and activity. He will also build in times of quiet and rest. There will be times when He asks us to remain faithful doing the same work day after day. But there will also be periods of excitement and new beginnings. By God’s grace, we will enjoy seasons of harvesting the fruit of our faithfulness. By God’s grace, we will also overcome the cold winters of heartache and grief, for without winter there would be no spring.”

I love this passage. I am coming from winter into spring. Experiencing a time of quiet rest in hopes of fruitfulness and activity to come. Overcoming hardships and expecting new and exciting things in the future!  I am happy to be where I am. I also am incredibly blessed to have the people in my life that I have, you know who you are. Thank you for being there for me through these seasons. May I do the same for you.

So I wait… hopeful, expecting, overcoming, growing, excited of what is to come!

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